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Wednesday, May 31, 2006 at 9:39 AM

4 more days to go...breaking down soon...going to bed is easy but getting up...is very very difficult..have to practically drag myself up everyday...now is already ten plus and there is still no one in the office.why is other people's life so good?

busy..busy...busy...have to entertain customers and have to listen to phonecalls..how can we do so much things?stressed...some many things to do but so little time...so many things undone...

sometimes,i really don't understand...customers can call as early as 7am to ask about all those travel packages...dun they have to sleep?and they dun tink about us...they expect us to do everything for them just because they paid their money...they dun give us any pride and treat us like dogs...pleasing people is difficult..well...

ok..getting very very busy...shall not post anymore...

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006 at 8:41 AM

four days straight...i dunno if i can really make it for the next five days.i never work like this before..i am really tired..wanna sleep...*yawn*...

watch Da Vinci Code again..yesterday..was so tired at the movie but i carn sleep because of the lights that keep on flashing on my eyes.went to the cathay to watch the movie.it was my first time watching over there..the place is quite new and quite big..but the cinema is kinda small so the movies gets full very fast..

i find it still very nice even after watching two times..now waiting for 'just my luck' to be screened..looking forward to watching it..

i really dunno what you are thinking and i really dunno hu are you..if you could lie to anyone

without batting an eyelid,i dun see y u carn lie to me and even if u did,i am not suprised..i used the think about the times when we were of very good terms but it is all in the past.....maybe,u just dun treasure this friendship...

tired..sad...pissed off....depressed...

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Saturday, May 27, 2006 at 10:45 AM

haiz..i think i am gonna survive on bread for the next few days..it is really stupid of me..it is a mistake that i will never forget.next time i will keep on the cash to myself and i have also learn something,no one can be trusted here.i have no one to blame,it is all my fault.i just have to work harder to earn back the money that i have lost.

i think the people at work will see at work for the next following days.no choice,it is not i want to work but i have to earn back money that i have lost.thinking about that makes me even sadder. not really in any mood to do anything.

this is about someone..that someone that i thought was a friend and could be trusted. but,somethings just happen..i dunno if he changed or he have always been like that just that i didn't notice something that was 'special' about him. sometimes i even wonder what he says is true or he just made it up.he tell too much lies and he was acting from the first time i met him, i am not suprise.maybe abit disappointed but that is all.

maybe in my mind,there is nothing call trust anymore.i no longer trust anyone.just like a friend, because of money can ignore me.what kind of responsibilty is that. to think that u claimed to have alot of values in your life.

disappointed..disappointed and more disappointment..

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Friday, May 26, 2006 at 9:31 AM

watch over the hedge yesterday..was quite funny but i did not really enjoy it as i saw someone...really affects my mood..anyway,overall had quite an enjoyable time...came home quite early as i don't really had the mood to shop cause afraid of seeing him...i don't wanna create any embarrassment...

so tired..yesterday night was a sleepless night..awaken by nightmares and stupid irritating phonecalls..i dunno how i am going to survive..for the next whole week,i am working at 6am..meaning that i have to wake up at 5..i probably be like a walking zombie for the rest of the days..

been spending alot of money this few days..mainly on clothes..if this continues i think i am going to be broke soon..haha..maybe i should spend more time working and spend less time going out.

having a big migraine now...argh..carn really concentrate...dunno what time i can go today.hope my supervisor lets me off early today..want to go home and sleep..really really tired...practically drained out..ok..i am gonna stop..otherwise i will go crazy..lalalala..

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Sunday, May 21, 2006 at 7:57 AM

tired tired and tired.thats all i can say.but no choice,money is hard to earn.that is the price you have to pay.everythings cleared now,buses are almost gone which explains why i have the time to post.everything around me is so quiet and peaceful except the noisy talkie but it also dun concern me.so i dun care.haha.. hmm,noisy but it is also quite funny,something about indians and ang mohs.

no choice,carn sleep so have to entertain myself.learn quite alot of things yesterday from the book that i was reading,alot of very chim words and alot of great meanings. seeing big smiles on everyone faces,wondering whether if they are really happy or ....how can everyone be so happy when you have to wake so early in the morning and then have to bear whatever the customers are saying and even bear their scoldings??well,i carn,thats for sure.i tried to talk with them nicely but if they still refuse to listen,then that is their problem.sorry to say but my attitude is like that.take it or leave it.

listening to the radio,listening to people gossipping,and my mind is runnning like mad with alot alot of thoughts.i think gonna fall sick soon,my voice almost gone and i am coughing like crazy now.hmm.always wondering if i am suffering from a very serious disease and just one day,i will die suddenly.then i will start to wonder if anyone really notice if i am gone from their lives and if they still continue their lives normally like nothing happen before.maybe i was really thinking too much.

now.waiting for Ms Justina to finish with her game before i can go to buy for breakfast.she is so engrossed with her game that she is ignoring my empty and growling stomach.sad.what time is she gonna finish her typing game!!i am really hungry!as sam always say,a hungry man is a angry man.it applies to me too!! ok.. just ask her if she is done.and.... she says that there is still a long way to go.. argh....my stomach is making alot of noise.i feel so sad for my stomach.my empty stomach..

FINALLY!!now settling down to eat my breakfast.

SATISFIED.finally finished my breakfast.haha.so happy..now,after eating,justina is back to her game and i am back to posting.she can play all she want now..i am full and happy.haha..lalalalala..

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Saturday, May 20, 2006 at 11:44 AM

another early morning.starting my day at 5 in the morning.today was abit hectic.so many mistakes.lucky we don't have customers shouting at us.i think that is the best thing that happen this morning.now,feeling quite tired.used up on my energy just now.

watch Poseidon yesterdaday.i kinda like it but after watching it,i was having some thoughts about going on a cruise on going on a ship.it is really scary,when the wave came,the people in the ship have absoulutely no control over themselves.they were practically flying all over the ship.and the looks on the faces were terrifying,eyes wide opened and they die a terrible death.so i don't think i will dare step onto a ship.haha.too scary.

tomorrow another early morning.haha.kinda looking forward to it even though i am quite tired.actually i dun mind working in the morning but i am just afraid that i cannot wake up.yesterday was so terrifying.i sort of having insommia.carn sleep then keep on turning around,practically spend about 1 hour to get myself to sleep.sleeping can also be quite a challenging task.haha.

people's life are so different.right now,which is about one plus,my parents are at home,sleeping.how comfortable can they get,haha.so good.i also wanna sleep so soundly as them but i don't have the time.so sad..all i have is,work work work and more work.

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Thursday, May 18, 2006 at 8:32 PM

time really pass very fast.one moment i find myself just awake and the next,the sky is already dark.haha. maybe it is just that i did not really took notice of the time ba.nothing much happen today, except that my mum and dad cook curry for dinner.which is so surprising cause they seldom cook and whats more,they cook curry which is much more difficult then just cooking a simple meal.i really thank them for their effort but ,er..i dun really find it very nice but i still finish my food.haha..

this few days really really very guilty cause i didn't turn up for work but i felt quite lazy so i did not go.so i was basically slacking at home all day long.then today my sis dun have to go sch today so i was practically disturbing her the whole day.hahs.it is because i am just too bored..

hmm..returning to work on saturday.and again will be morning shift.i think,if i am not wrong,i am schedule for every weekend morning.unless my suppervisor suddenly went mental and have a change of mind.haha.

guess i gotta stop now.my sis is ...erm..ok ok..so thats all for now.bye.

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Monday, May 15, 2006 at 9:04 PM

today has been a slacking day for mi.wake up at 11.then watch tv all the way.haha.if like that like that sure die de.there have been something on my mind.why can't forget something that i really wanna forget while other more important things that i have been trying very hard not to forget but i still forget.how funny is that.

even though if have already passed quite some time,but whenever i think of that or that piece of bad memory some how comes to my mind.i will still uncomfortable and sad.i am been to forget it or put it behind mi but i can't.why izzit so difficult??i just don't understand.and when i thought of it,my mood get affected greatly.why do you have such a great impact on me.it is like you are controlling my emotions.why can't i stop thinking about you.i told mself lots of times to forget you but i just can't.probably i just dun wanna give you up.i keep on telling myself to forget you but i am oso then one that keep on holding to you.i just don't understand myself.

anyway,forget all the sad things.tomorrow is another new beginning.dunno why but i have been quite optimistic lately.hahas.dunno what have gone into me.maybe i have gone crazy.hmm.maybe i should go look up the imh website.then i can be admitted together with acasius.haha.

oh ya,regarding that thing.i am really very disappointed.to think you could tell me such a thing.working people are richer people and they won't be broke.whoever heard of that kind of theory?well,i have by a very very ridiculous FRIEND.no matter what i just feel that you are very very irresponsible.and that you have no rights to keep on saying when you are in the wrong.you are just no mature enough to admit your mistakes.and please be more INDEPENDANT.you are not a small kid anymore.so please grow up! i am sick and tired of listening to your excuses.

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Sunday, May 14, 2006 at 8:42 PM

wow.haha.guess i was kinda excited as this is the second post of the day.Just quite proud of myself that i can actually create my own blog.and to say,it is quite fun too.haha.today,after working for that mere 7 hrs ,i slept like a log at my grandma house.Really really tired.hmm.think i am really getting old liao.So easily tired.haha.

today,something's wrong with my dad.Was kinda moody,and my mum was saying that maybe he was having menopause but me and my sis was thinking that maybe he was having pms.hahs.but who cares,as long as he dun provoke mi can liao.he can have his own tempers.i don't care.

dunno what is on my mind lately.so many feelings.dunno wat to do.everything is not the same anymore.and i am not that close to him as before.i am confused.probably things are not wat i tink it is.maybe it is even more confused.haha.

Now,trying to be social.cause lately finding myself quite anti-social.haha.if this continues i tink i will have no friends liao.haha.SOmetimes,best friends are not really best friends even though thy claim that they are your best friends.But when you are in trouble,they will keep saying that they will help u.Only by saying,never by action.How sad is that.Wat kind of best friend is this?i wonder.Getting blame for everything when it is her fault and responsibility.life is just sad.maybe not for everyoe but defintely for mi.

i'm taking forever to forget you.

at 9:13 AM

if i am going work like this everyday,i think i will die sooner or later..i don't understand why i can wake up when i was still schooling..maybe it is a miracle that i can go to school on time everyday.Now,i have full respect for students in primary and secondary school.Hahaha..i think i am going mad soon..my memory is already failing me and i am only so young.sad..

i just don't understand.why carn ppl have more initiative?you borrow money from me and now i practically have to beg to return mi.What sort of reason is this ?and i am also suppose to wait PATIENTLY for you to return my money.WoW..how wonderful..and i am not suppose to give any pressure.how great..

i have learn a new thing.Next time i don't think i can be finance manager or anything that gotta do with finance as i have so many difficulties just wanting MY OWN FRIEND to return my money.How sad is that..I learn a big lesson.Money really spoils each other relations..No wonder people can fight and even kill each other just because of money.

I must say,even though i am very pissed off regarding this matter,i am really controlling my own tempers,trying to be sarcastic because i dun wanna lose my temper.Seriously,no matter what i do,no one appreciates.Everyone take what i do for granted.Everything and everyone is against me in everything i do.For me,no matter how many good deeds i have done,i dun tink i will ever be appreciated.Just a sad life i have.

i'm taking forever to forget you.