Say it OnLy if you mean it.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006 at 2:49 PM

so tired today..fell asleep at class..guess the lesson was kinda boring..but the teacher is super lame..haha...

today feeling better compare to yesterday..probably is because i got over it already and numb to everthing...i guess my life is suppose to be like that..that terrible...

it is dead boring now..nothing to do...some people playing music so loud..but i can't say anything..it is so fake around here..why can't people be themselves?i am getting tired around here..maybe one day i will leave this place...and never will i come near here again...

without even asking the question,i already have the answer already..guess you are making everything very very obvious...

still sad....always will be..

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006 at 7:48 PM

hmm..actually quite good mood de...but don't know why suddenly so mood..now super bad mood..

i think i falling sick soon..keep on coughing...super super no mood..

shall post no more...super irritated..

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Sunday, June 25, 2006 at 9:02 AM

dunno whats going on ....always seems to be in a daze...my life is in a terrible mess..

really really tired today..dunno went up and down the stairs how many times..now going to fall asleep soon...then can't stop hiccupping..dunno why..argh!! so irritating...

been thinking about alot of things..even about the impossible..i just want the best for myself,even if i am not happy...but what will happen in the end,no one knows for now..

so so so bored...my eyes really closing soon..no one's here yet..only 4 miserable girls...where are all the guys??

why can't i just be happy for once?whenever i am feeling better or abit happier then before,something bad will happen to me...why is my life so sad??why can't i lead a happier life?

ok.now some weird people are taking a picture infront of the company...what is so nice? i dun understand..so strange..is a logo really that interesting??

sad.sad.sad.sad.always sad.

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Saturday, June 24, 2006 at 10:49 AM

working now..today kinda relax cause dun have to go school..then i don't have to rush...

today morning was basically slacking..haha..so few coaches but so many people working...so can no nid do so much work...

bored..too much feelings bottled inside me..too much problems...maybe the problems are all created by myself...

don't feel well...emotionally and physically...maybe i am really falling sick soon..

life is like a game..i am just playing along even though i really dun wan to.probably i will end the game earlier then i thought...always compromising and accomodating.. i am really tired...

nothing helps..

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Friday, June 23, 2006 at 11:05 PM

just feel like writing something..feel like crying too...

was chatting with rachel and she said ''just because i smile doesn't mean that i am happy because it takes one smile to cover a million tears''.. i like that phrase very much..haha...quite meaningful too..

my life is in a mess..something very very precious to me is gone...trying to press all the feelings inside me..but i am feeling very terrible now..don't know what to do..everythings change..

while having my luch at the cafetaria today,suddenly thought of the old days when the bunch of us were having our recess..haha...so memorable even though it is just a small thing.. things won't go back to the past..thats for sure..but i really enjoy all the times we had...

to me..i dun tink things are going well in my family..i am having a different opinion now.. and if things change,i am not suprised. maybe i will even be moving out of the house sooner than i thought...

i hope that it wouldn't be you...even though i can't help but think that you are the one.. you are probably the one that i trust most there now..so pls dun disappoint me and destroy the friendship between us.

really really breaking down soon.wish me luck...sad..

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006 at 6:25 AM

been kinda busy lately..school and work and going out with friends..somehow i find that it is wasting time ..just working that one hour plus and it is very tiring to work and then go to school...i think i will only will work till this week..if i continue to work like this i think i will breakdown..even if i don't work till night but i also reach home about 9 plus everyday..sometimes,i am also afraid that i will just die suddenly..i am not afraid of dying but i just don't want to die just like that..i still have alot to accomplish in life..

been thinking alot yesterday...everything..what have happen before...i dunno why but i just can't forget him...but there is nothing i can do..

i gotta go school liao..even though i still have lots to say..

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Friday, June 16, 2006 at 3:14 PM

long time no post liao...alot of things happen this week..

have to attend school but still have to work in the morning because this week alot of coaches.. so i have to go to work 1st then after that i have take bus down to work..so tiring..i think i am not going to do that again...so troublesome and i don't have any mood to study and will keep dozing off...

anyway,school quite fun also...even though it involve a lot of maths that i personally don't like but i find that it is quite challenging and the i won't fall asleep easily too...make a number of friends.. they are also quite funny..just started school but we already have to do project...so rush..

this weekend will be very busy...lots of homework to do but i think i am going to like it..haha..

kaes...getting tired..shall stop here...

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Saturday, June 10, 2006 at 9:02 AM

i feel like writing something but i dunno what to write...what a confusion..

yesterday suppose to work at 6am but i woke up late..haiz..then in the end i didn't go..haha..feeling sort of guity...but i can't do anything..it is already over..

now over here is so peaceful..no phonecalls,no customer and more importantly,no supervisor nagging at us..haha..i like this kind of life...so quiet..

talk to my sister just now..haha..so miss her..she is so ''artistic''...drawing over there...draw trees and grass... think only acting lar..haha..she is coming back on saturday..suddenly feeling time passes so fast..

wa..i long time never see justina liao..miss her too..haha..i think she is having her holiday this coming week...so good..she holiday then i have to start school..

actually kinda looking forward to start school but i am afraid that i dun have any

friends over there..then i will be a great loner...i dun like this kind of feelings..i am already depressed enough..i dun wan more problems..and i seriously hope that i can cope with the school...

so many troubles and no one to share it with me..life is that sad...

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006 at 8:44 AM

i was walking to work today...passing football court and a basketball court..memories start to flood my mind..feeling kind of sad..thinking of everything that happen that time...my mood went from happy to.....sort of like a roller coaster..

now,music was blasting off the speaker..i wish everyday was like that but life is not that good to me..later the supervisor will be coming and my life will be worser than before..

always wondering why am i good to people..they don't even appreciate..guess that i will always have to play that part for the rest of my life..really sick and tired of it..

envy my sis,tmr going malaysia liao..haha..gonna miss her...going for 4 nights..so good...i also wanna go..but..not possible...

another excuse...i am not angry at you but seriously if your parents can go abroad,i don't see the reason why you carn pay me back the money when you say your parents are helping you to pay for it..well,i am in no position to criticise you and i carn point a gun at you to force you..i am waiting..and see whether this friend of mine will do what she is suppose to do..

feeling very sad..shall not post anymore...

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Friday, June 02, 2006 at 12:17 PM

another morning..glad that it is over soon...today check-in is ok but it always seems that the customer are all very difficult and carn understand simple things...carn say they are stupid though..

this few days really really busy...following up my bookings,handling more bookings...so so busy..then the hotels take so much time to fax over...and the customers keep on calling to ask about their bookings..what do they think we are?settle everything so fast...

tired tired..at least today got more time to rest..the supervisor on leave then i think the mom upstairs is not there..so kind of relax and the phones are also not ringing that much..so good..so got time to post...

wishing that everything will be back to normal..the days that we had..but..i know it not possible..so i gotta stop dreaming..

anyway,meeting my old pals up this sunday..haha..excited..and i really miss you guys..haha..love you!!

i'm taking forever to forget you.