about a week since i last post... i didn't even on my computer for the past week.. just don't see the need to and don't have the mood...at work now.. nothing do so here i am.. posting.. had my 2 new modules this week.. business law was ok but i think it will be quite difficult... the lecturer seem strict.. at least he is so much better than the PBM lecturer... and then we had our marketing lecturer.. he is so so positive.. keep on smiling... he is nice and he care alot about the students and he does not look at the ceiling when he is talking...
didn't go school for 2 days.. don't know why but i just don't have the mood to... PMS ba... feel so sick and tired of school... somehow.. all this things don't seem that important to me anymore.. don't feel like going to school on monday too.. just plain bored... don't see the need to and i seriously don't feel like going.. school seems so terrible this few days...
yesterday went to town, spend alot of money so i think gotta survive on bread until i get my pay... this happen with poor money management... after that, had to leave nat alone cause my friend ask me to help at the last minute... so i spent about 4 hrs painting a spiderman.. -_-'' i tried to do it nicely but my friend just used the brush and paint everything over.. so much for trying to do things nicely... he just keep saying that if it is too nice then the teacher will not believe that the art piece is done by him.. then in the 1st place should not ask me to help him right? then he say that he meeting sher lin(the best student in art) tomorrow to help him paint too... then might as well don't ask me to help you.. my art not that good either.. mad....
now deciding whether to work tomorrow.. once again.. no mood.. then i have to go to my grandma house cause my uncle ask me to help him get o/w tix.. so i have to pass him that tomorrow... feeling really bored.. don't feel like doing anything...
parents going off to taiwan today... they are so blur.. they even forgot the date they are coming back.. don't know what they are doing.. normally people going abroad will check their stuff properly and make sure that everything is in order and things are going as planned but certainly not them... so they are coming a day later.. but not much difference.. the coming back flight is at 7 plus in the morning..meaning that they have to reach the airport at about 5 plus.. thats total madness.. might as well come back the day before...
somehow, i know that things are going very well between you two.. both of you seem so sweet together.. things are better then i expected.. guess that there is nothing i can do.. i tried and i give up... i don't deserve anything in the world.. nothing.. some things are worth the wait but not in this case... no point waiting for things that you know will not be worth it and you just end up wasting all your time... no point..
waiting for jus... i think which is about another hour.. she works at 10 and now is only 9.. if she is here then she can keep me company so i won't feel so bored... and i also can disturb her.. =) hope that she will pass her supp paper.. it would be really horrible to retake the whole module.. waste time and money.. jus.. one more paper on friday.. so you must do your best ya? jia you!! you can do it if you don't sleep so late everyday..=)
how to be happy when you know that you are not? how to smile when you don't even know how? how to pretend that everything is fine when that is not the truth? how to be friends when you know that you hate each other to the core? how to do everything correctly when things are just not going your way? thats my life... forced to do things that i don't want and i don' t like..
being with you is an miracle... which means that it is impossible..
my driving licence(it's a miracle!)
a trip abroad with my friends
a brand new job
a word from you
to see you again
good results is a must
work hard to get lots of money
