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Friday, September 29, 2006 at 4:38 PM

another boring week... life's really bad for me nowadays... things are always not right for me... i didn't go school on monday and i don't feel like going school for most of the days but i just got no choice...the assignments stuff are all arranged and next week is going to be a busy week..

about school... the business law lecturer is really really very bored.. or rather, the whole lesson is very bored.. then the PMPM is another one... the teacher is funny but... i just lost interest in both of the modules.. i definitely won't be surprise if i fail... everything is just so sucky and so not right... and i didn't went for the PMPM on friday because i don't feel like it.. if this is the way you treat friends then.. so be it.. i am not going to care anymore..

i just feel that i don't deserve any of the things that i am getting... just been giving and giving... not that i want something in return but things are just not fair.. i am not against your way of doing things.. everyone has his/her method of solving things...

mum and dad came home yesterday.. went to watch 'stay alive'.. it was suppose to be a horror movie but i think that it was more of a adventurous movie as it is quite exciting rather than being scary.. maybe the movie is considered scary because of the characters in the movie.. ghosts are seen crawling around, flying around and just flashing around...

i was thinking... if i really have the chance and the cash.. i will really stay at thailand for a very long period of time... i like the country alot, besides the military coup.. at least the people there are very kind... and they don't give attitude to people.. and most important of all, they don't betray people and they are not fake.. at least this is what i think and i think that is already enough...

Natas fair is on for the weekend.. which also means that i will be working full shift... at least i can get things off my mind... don't have much time to think about things... but i think i am going to be super tired... money is hard to earn... and one thing.. i was forced to go to the Natas fair on sunday..i really don't want to go.. 1st of all, it is at expo meaning it is quite far and i will take alot of time to get home.. 2nd, i cannot even bear to stay 1 hour there and if i go on sunday, i have to stay there for 12 hrs!!! i seriously cannot tolerate it but i guess that i will have to go... i asked my supervisor and he say that he will try to ask but i doubt that... it is all my fault for not being able to curry favour and get what he wants...

anyway.. had some good news... we actually had lots of talented people working in the office.. all with either a diploma or a degree and one that i know of is even studying for a doctorate! how cool is that.. but there is only one problem.. their certificate are all not certified.. i am still trying to obtain a normal certificate and jus is trying to get a diploma.. the others are all trying for the degree... not that i don't want to try harder but i just cannot go against my will to do things i don't want..

talking about talent... over here at the office, we have all kinds of talent... sooner or later you will discover them just like what i did..so don't look down on our colleagues.. they are great people with great contributions.. only people which have the same thinking understands what i am saying... and i think only jus will understand.. =)

the people around me are so enthu...how i wish i was like them... but i was like that before.. but if you have been doing the same thing for quite some time... you will get bored.. just like me.. not that i don't enjoy my job.. i like it but i just don't like why people will get to every means just to get what they want... but like what my lecturer say.. there is no shortcut to survival..even if you can get it your way one time, doesn't mean that you will get it everytime...

should finish this post.. getting longer and longer...

i wish you were mine...long,hard days ahead...

i'm taking forever to forget you.