today was a bad day!!! i woke up so late... don't know what happen... lucky i wasn't reprimanded but my supervisor was on work also... hope that he won't change my shift... today was so busy.. there was so many buses and so many people.. the buses were late... and there were alot of transfers.. now handing the aftermath.. phones ringing like mad... people screaming over the phone..
i understand that they are very impatient because the weather and the place that they are in and if i am in their shoes i will also be like that.. but all this things are inevitable.. if you don't want all these things to happen, you can either drive up there yourself or if not, go on non-peak season. because if you go on non-peak season, you can be sure that there will not be jam and you don't have to transfer bus.
sometimes i really don't understand why people want to go on holiday during those super peak periods.. just queueing for the rides you will have to wait for some time already... i think you will be queueing more than getting on the rides... if you go on non-peak periods, you don't have to queue and you can play whatever games you want.. isn't that better?
exam coming soon... both projects i get B.. =( i was at least hoping for an A for one of the projects.. guess i didn't did as well as i thought... the teacher is right.. everyone things that their project is the best and they have done very well... i think is because what we did still lacks something compare to those who get As..
one last module and the whole course is going to end... happy and sad at the same time...happy because i am going to get the diploma.. and i can get away from the whole class.. i just feel that i don't click with the group... or maybe i am just anti-social...
desperately needing money... i got to save for alot of things.. driving, my advanced diploma and i hope to go for thai lessons.. all this things need money... but i lazy to work... so contradicting.. planning my future.. and i intend to study my degree too.. and the course cost about 20000!!! how am i suppose to raise all that money???
stressed.... probably i will just tell you straight and let you faint. =)
i'm taking forever to forget you.
Saturday, October 14, 2006 at 11:22 AM
another week has passed... so fast.. maybe the faster the better... then things will end sooner and i don't have to worry about so much... then, things will get better... as least i think it will...
working tomorrow too.. and also for the public holidays... doesn't matter.. now i want to earn as much money asap.. i want to buy a new phone... and i want to pay for my own course.. i think i am creating enough problems and troubles for my parents... it is time for them to enjoy life...
is appreciate a very difficult to understand? why does people don't appreciate the things people do for them? they always take things for granted.. always wanting you to do this and that while they themselves, enjoying life like nobody's business... why do they enjoy this kind of life while we have to slog our guts out? we are all human.. and who gives you the power and ability to do all these.. this kind of people are just too self centred..
getting ready to get off from work.. no mood and very tired...
i'm taking forever to forget you.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006 at 11:43 PM
was suppose to meet ms ng in the morning but later thought that was to inappropriate as it was a family thing after all. So i went back to sleep because it was still early but i didn't expect time to pass so quickly. if ver did not call me, i am sure that i will be late... =)
nothing happen in school... but the fishball noodles was so horrible.. will never eat the same thing in my whole life again.. it was a torture to put a mouthful of noodles into my mouth.. really horrible.. don't know ver can manage to finish it and she still claims that it was nice. some people have weird tastebuds. =X
business law is so boring.. always feel like sleeping when i am having his lessons... projects are still not yet done and i just started on the law project today... so many things to do but so little time.. the pmpm project is almost done.. this week classes are ending so late and i really hate them... the time is not right to do anything.. =(
after school, went to ecp with ruth... she make me walk to and fro just to rent a bike. then we cycle all the way to the place where people were cable skiing.. we had fun laughing at them.. some of them were very cool and they manage to ski three rounds without any difficult while the others just fall at the start of their ski. then went to had jap food, was not bad and the environment was quite good. nice and quiet.. no disturbance... overall, a nice day.. =)
running short of time.. if only i had more courage...
you have entered into my life but i have yet to enter into yours....
i'm taking forever to forget you.
Sunday, October 08, 2006 at 9:51 AM
no one at work.... the office is so empty... hope my supervisor won't come in so early.. don't wish to listen to all his nagging... hope he only comes in after i go so i don't have to see him.. today there will be a big news.. i think the cruise will sink on its way to phuket.. because someone weighty is on board the cruise..
speaking of the devil... don't know why the supervisor come so early... really don't feel like seeing him so early... he really spoils everyone's mood and make our day worse.. don't why is he pay for so much and yet all he does is nothing.. what is the world turning to.. able to get money without even using any effort.. and effort refers to hardwork and not the ability to curry favour or try to be in favour of the superiors..
why can't the time pass as quickly as yesterday? i want to end work and faster go home and sleep.. i am super tired now... just sitting here doing nothing can also be quite a difficult task too.. because i am trying to keep myself awake.. i will really quit this job if i get another better job because i am not happy here.. the only reason i am here to work because the pay is not bad and the workload is light..
i don't have much time now.. only about 10 more weeks left.. things are easier to say then done.. i'm not afraid of the outcome but i just don't have the courage... i know we are suppose to take things step by step but now.. there is already limited time now.. i don't want to waste any more time..
tired to continue...
why can't things go as well as i want them to be?
i'm taking forever to forget you.
Friday, October 06, 2006 at 11:09 AM
feeling so bored.. so must find something to do.. so here i am... posting... just wake up about 30 mins ago.. feeling so lousy... really don't like to be sick.. coughing and coughing.. one day i will try to cough out my lungs...
about yesterday.. as expected. not a word was exchange between us and nooria... but we just heard her gossiping about us to others... its all over.. our conscience.. she can say which whatever she want to say.. even if people potrays the wrong image of us.. i seriously cannot care more.. all this things are just so childish...
going to school later... a trip was planned after school but cancelled.. =( now i don't know where to kill time after school...was hoping to get some things off my mind... but.. nevermind...
seriously no mood to continue....
i don't know what i am doing.
i'm taking forever to forget you.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 7:48 PM
definitely must post today.. so many things happen.. and many really means alot... in the morning.. nat,me and ver went to the mac near our school to do or project.. and the near means the nearest mac that was near our school... but the near was so so far.. we walk till we almost rot... we should have forced nat to walk back to our school and make her know how far we walk because her bus stop just outside of the mac! how not fair!!!
then in school, was very sleepy.. don't know why because i have enough sleep the night before.. then.. everything was normal until mr siew brought the topic about the project.. thats where everything starts.. then we started to explain to nooria about why didn't we included her in the project and stuff... then after that, she showed us the black face... nvm about that.. we were at fault too.. but when she msg ivy and said all those things, i really cannot control..
i really don't know what she thinking.. then nat call her but we didn't get much to talk because she was just talking and talking away and no matter what she say, she was blaming us for everything... and she keeps repeating what she is saying and i did not even get a chance to say my part... =(
anyway, it is all over.. no point talking about it... we did wrong and we apologised for it.. oh ya.. and this was the 1st time that i see nat so "hot".. she was so so fierce.. next time cannot irritate nat... can die... so was talking on the phone with nooria and it was so loud that i think even in the library can hear.. (abit exaggerating but she was really very fierce)
i meant every word that i said.. i don't blame you for what you did...i cannot control how you think but if you would have given me more trust at that time.. all this things wouldn't have happen.. i am not angry.. just telling you how i felt... and don't say sorry.. i don't blame you..
i think tomorrow still need to walk the long distance.. because we need to finish the project.. class starting at 1.. so boring... i rather they start early and end early... tomorrow gonna be a hard day.. lots of black faces....
i really don't know what to do.. i am so stuck... let the course faster end and my worries and feelings will end too... maybe i just did too much.. guess that helping others not necessarily will be a good thing... next time.. will just pretend that i don't know anything and stick to my own stuff.. too much "kpoing" and concern does no good.. SUPER NO MOOD!!!
my driving licence(it's a miracle!)
a trip abroad with my friends
a brand new job
a word from you
to see you again
good results is a must
work hard to get lots of money
