definitely must post today.. so many things happen.. and many really means alot... in the morning.. nat,me and ver went to the mac near our school to do or project.. and the near means the nearest mac that was near our school... but the near was so so far.. we walk till we almost rot... we should have forced nat to walk back to our school and make her know how far we walk because her bus stop just outside of the mac! how not fair!!!
then in school, was very sleepy.. don't know why because i have enough sleep the night before.. then.. everything was normal until mr siew brought the topic about the project.. thats where everything starts.. then we started to explain to nooria about why didn't we included her in the project and stuff... then after that, she showed us the black face... nvm about that.. we were at fault too.. but when she msg ivy and said all those things, i really cannot control..
i really don't know what she thinking.. then nat call her but we didn't get much to talk because she was just talking and talking away and no matter what she say, she was blaming us for everything... and she keeps repeating what she is saying and i did not even get a chance to say my part... =(
anyway, it is all over.. no point talking about it... we did wrong and we apologised for it.. oh ya.. and this was the 1st time that i see nat so "hot".. she was so so fierce.. next time cannot irritate nat... can die... so was talking on the phone with nooria and it was so loud that i think even in the library can hear.. (abit exaggerating but she was really very fierce)
i meant every word that i said.. i don't blame you for what you did...i cannot control how you think but if you would have given me more trust at that time.. all this things wouldn't have happen.. i am not angry.. just telling you how i felt... and don't say sorry.. i don't blame you..
i think tomorrow still need to walk the long distance.. because we need to finish the project.. class starting at 1.. so boring... i rather they start early and end early... tomorrow gonna be a hard day.. lots of black faces....
i really don't know what to do.. i am so stuck... let the course faster end and my worries and feelings will end too... maybe i just did too much.. guess that helping others not necessarily will be a good thing... next time.. will just pretend that i don't know anything and stick to my own stuff.. too much "kpoing" and concern does no good.. SUPER NO MOOD!!!
my driving licence(it's a miracle!)
a trip abroad with my friends
a brand new job
a word from you
to see you again
good results is a must
work hard to get lots of money
