Say it OnLy if you mean it.

Monday, January 29, 2007 at 7:20 PM

taking some of my available free time to post... really very busy nowadays... school and work occupying most of my time... new year coming soon and haven't got enough to go and shop for new clothes...

was watching the news yesterday and found out that one of the taiwanese actress had got into a serious car accident and died because her heart has stop beating.. the parents did everything they could to help her, including going to temples and praying for her but i guess her time is up... feel so sorry.. and looking at all her friends crying for her... this make me realise that life is really very vulnerable.. just one small mistake and it would cost your life... if only she had fasten her seatbelt... her injuries wouldn't be that serious but now... no point saying all this.. what had happen had already happen...

i don't like my new class... most of the students are foreigners... and most of them are from china... to be serious, i really don't like cheena people.. just feel that they are very noisy and fake... if i would have known then i would have join the december intake.. maybe i will be able to see someone i would like to see there...

watching the 7p.m show... has been a long time since i watch mediacorp shows.. it is not too bad.. reminds me of my secondary school days... if only i would be able to go back to that time... we were all carefree and without problems... problems that we thought were problems during the secondary life were actually problems that were easy to solve but now... after stepping into the society and start working.. the problems that i now met are really difficult problems.... if only i would have treasure everything that was happening in secondary school.. nothing to stress about and able to go home straight after school... miss all those days.... it has all become memories now....

going to continue to watch my show... so stopping for now....

things are so different now...... why can't everything be easier?

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Sunday, January 21, 2007 at 11:12 AM

working... so tired that i slept in the counter in the morning... no customers and no phone calls.... good good good.. but today justina not here.... only the lonely me..

anyway.. going off at 2pm.. i'm really very tired.. lucky next week not working.. has been a long time since i really had a good sleep.. don't think i am going to the party on saturday... since things have become like that...

yesterday was a very nice day... my uncle finally got married... even though the wedding was a very simple one but it was so cool.. there was the solemnisation ceremony... i normally see this on tv shows but the actual one was really very romantic ... the exchanging of rings and vows... "you are now pronounced man and wife ",and the newly wed couple offering tea to their elders.

but somehow think that the wedding should have been more lavish... since you are only doing this one in a lifetime.. so the weddding a very extravagant and memorable one.. that is in my point of view.. =)

then after the lunch, i wasted all my time in my grandma's house doing nothing except rotting and walking around.. had actually decided to go shopping but everyone in the family agreed to go to my grandma house so.. i got no choice..

stop here... verlyn don't believe me...

everything is so fake around me.....

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Sunday, January 14, 2007 at 12:37 PM

seriously have nothing to do and if i am to continue like this.. i'm sure i will fall asleep soon..i am really tired.. slept only like 4 hours.. so so so lack of sleep..slept at 1 plus cause i was watching vcd with my mum.. it was the last episode so cannot don't miss it..

working in the morning again... colleague came late.. he don't even know that he is working the morning shift! lucky i called otherwise i wouldn't know what i will have to do.. i think this job is really very taxing.. having to work long hours and sitting here doing nothing.. i seriously don't know how long can i still stand it...

feel like changing my blogskin... but.. lazy and no time.. next week will be very very busy.. monday to sunday i will be working and i don't think i will have time for anything else... starting my lessons soon.. very happy because i can finally get to do what i want to do.. i will strive hard for it!

i want to sleep.. i want to sleep... i want to sleep... raining.. has been raining for two days... when will this monsoon season end? rain has made the weather very cold.. and has create a lot of inconvenience for me too... rain rain go away.. come again another day...

i think i have gone mad... i need to see the doctor...

catch an opportunity and not lose it.....

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Saturday, January 13, 2007 at 6:10 PM

here to post... noticed that the blog was already gathering dust... still have 4 more hours to go 10pm. working for 16 hrs straight... just because i have to go earlier next week.. tomorrow's the same thing.. also working till 10pm.. hope will get released earlier so that i can go home and rest..

think will be looking like a walking zombie tomorrow.. today is still alright cause i had enough sleep today.. working from 6am-1opm then i will have to work at 10am on monday.. i think i am even more stress compared to the days i have school..

have been playing games the whole day.. and of course doing my job.. today's a great day because there is no one here working... as in no disturbing people working today.. i hope everyday that i am working will be like that.. another thing.. i'm specially irritated by people who work according to their mood.. when they are in a bad mood then they will be angry and short tempered... then once they have done and settled their things then they will talk to you nicely... i just don't think it is the right way to do things.. i was left with no choice but to ask him because i thought that he could help but he just scold me off like that.. i am asking for the customer's sake because it would be really convenient for him if he were to sit a different bus when all him other family members are on the other bus.. imagine that you were in his shoes.. will you feel good?

have been working almost everyday but i don't see the money.. don't know where i have i spent it.. i think saving money is really difficult... probably it will be easier if i were not a spendthrift.. =)

to that someone that reads my blog : probably we have had some misunderstandings and we not on very good terms now but i just want to say that i really appreciate you taking the initiative and talk to me that day.. but i still think that somehow there are still something not cleared... i know you are still thinking about why did i agreed to go with nat to study but seriously i really had no idea and if i were given any choice i would not have go.. you think i would have gone...i was just sitting and not making any conversations with them.. well.. thats all i have to say..

shall stop.. have to continue the game with justina otherwise i think she will kill me.. maybe i will post tomorrow... i'll see how.. =)

seeing you would be another miracle...

i'm taking forever to forget you.