after the horribly lack of sleep, i'm still not getting enough sleep. i think this is the first time that i have been working so hard. i've never tried to sleep at 3am just because of a project, not even when i've exams.
seiously, i just cannot bring myself to do it. i know that he really did not contribute to any our of work but to see him get a zero, it seems abit cruel. and it also means that he will have a high possibility of failing the whole moduel because just the project alone is 30%. but at the same time, i also cannot accept it if he were to get the same marks as me. i've practically slogged my life to finish the project. but how do you expect me to say it? nat seems determined to get his name out, and i don't want to say anything already. just like yesterday, i put in good words for him, but when we come back, he is there, playing the computer. i'm already trying to help you, but why can't you help yourself too? it is your own marks that are on stake and i'm trying to protect you even though you seriously did not do anything. i've did what i can do and now, it is up to the majority. no more good words and no more soft-hearted me. what's gonna happen will happen.
went pass SGH today, remember about all those horrible times where i have to go to the hospital. it really sucks. having to go and find the ward and then have to see our relatives there. everyone is trying so hard to smile and crack jokes to break the icy atmospere. if i had a choice, i would rather prefer to die first, so i don't have see people around me dying, and i would not have to be so sad. at least when i die, i won't have to cry. Yes. i'm selfish.
today came to school with super black face. i have to apologised. people like me who do not have sufficient is like that. i've been giving my zhao pai black face to my secondary school classmates every single day. don't know how they can tolerate me. and besides that, i also have to apologised for throwing temper on wednesday. it is just that i've too much things on my mind, project still not done and people are just not helping around and also keep getting scolded and screamed at and of course, i just cannot control my temper when i'm tired. it just gets out of control.
finally, a free day tomorrow. after school tomorrow, i have nothing on, so probably going study with nat, since exams are so near, but who knows. i think i'll be going nat's house to study. we'll see how. i don't like FM.
i'm thinking to put kenneth's before and after photos. but i scare later he angry. i will wait for him to see this and reply me. it will be interesting. anyway. i need to catch up on my sleep. crazy pimples popping out like there is no tomorrow. i hate them.
really stressed or stressing myself too much? i think i'm crazy and nat agrees with me. probably i should book and appointment with the shrink.
things are not looking as they seems. agree?
i'm taking forever to forget you.
Sunday, March 25, 2007 at 11:57 AM
i will try to post as often as i can but no promises... i am just not that free.. and i don't have alot of interesting things that happen everyday.. my life's kinda boring you know...
slept at 1, had a hard time waking up this morning and the usual incidents where people cannot catch the bus then having to call us and insists us to give them a answer right away. but, my point is that, if you miss the bus, you will need to give me some time to call the driver and get his location before i can call back to you and you must understand that we do not have all the contacts of the drivers. but some, even if they are in the wrong, keep scolding us and make it seems like it is us that cost them to miss their bus.. if you are not sure of whether your documents can go through the customs, then jolly well call the customs or the immigration building to check.. we are only tour consultants, not custom officers.. some people, expects we to do everything they want just because of them paying for the trip.. mind you, you pay for the hotel and coach but you did not pay us to do everything for you.. so when we do things for you, don't take it for granted.. and i have to say, the same applies to friends too.. don't always think that we owe you.. appreciate our kindness...
may be meeting jas for dinner but not too sure yet. see how... since i will be going near vivo.. then after that, if i am early then i can go to my grandma house, if not then i will go home but can't say for now.. my energy is slowly running out.. don't know if i can hold out for that long.. right now, i still have 5hours more...
okay, i need to stop, lets see if i have time tomorrow then i will blog, i doubt so unless we can finish the project early..
you are just not helping...
i'm taking forever to forget you.
Saturday, March 24, 2007 at 8:30 AM
since kenneth is coming everyday to look at my uninteresting blog, then i will post more often. anyway, since i am also so free now...
NATAS fair is now at Suntec Exhibition Hall, from 23-25March. Feel free to go and have a look, admission fee is $3. Promoting my own company, something that i will never ever do. But please go and have a look at our booth. Five Stars Tours. i think it is booth T03.
a lot of stuff still not yet done.. working from 6-2pm then after that i've got tuition from 2.30-4.00pm. and after that i'm free! but it is a saturday and i don't like to go out because a lot of people. then tomorrow, 6-2pm at 5* then after that i got tuition from 2.30-4.30pm then another tuition at 4.45-6.15pm. so busy... but its ok, that's life, gotta suffer if you want to earn money..
our MM project is still not yet done and seriously nat and i don't think that it is very nice because not everyone is cooperating.. i really don't like to do projects cause that is when are the quarrels and disagreements will happen.. different people have different way of doing things but to us, we just don't like to do things last minute and it just seems that some people don't even care at all. if all that you want is to relax and still get good marks, then i afraid that would be quite difficult. this always happen whenever we are doing project.. it happen once with nooria and now, the same thing is going to happen again..
just finish my breakfast, have to wait so long not because the food have not come yet but because my nice friend forget to take the spoon, so i ended having to wait for another colleague to go and get her food so she can get me a spoon... so pathetic...
kana scolded from a customer today. she has 4 paxs and then she was given 4A,B,C and 5A. she keep insisting that the seats are separated because there was 2 single seats. then she was blabbering and blabbering away.. then after that she said that we actually can help her but we don't want to and even say that we were racist.. we were shocked at what she said because we were not biased and we never even thought of being racist. i just think that she is very sensitive and also like to think alot. and it is really not that we don't want to change for her but we just cannot. if everyone wants the double seats then who will take the single seats? if she could have speak to us in a nicer tone instead of shouting at us, at least we would see and help in anyway we can but you being the customer, gave us that kind of attitude, and you expect us to do things in the way that you want. i'm sorry but i think we cannot do that.. you are the one that is destroying your own holiday mood by screaming at us and you are blaming it on us...
i think i have been posting for a few hours already.. when i'm working i always cannot do it at one shot because there may be customers coming or i will have to answer the phone..
after so long, i really thought that i would not care about it anymore, but today, after talking to you, i feel that things are really not what i thought it would be.. it just terrorises me and i seriously can't pretend that nothing has happen... i really don't know what to do...
super no mood. thought that i was happy that i talk to you but it seems to be the opposite..
i am clueless....
i'm taking forever to forget you.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007 at 10:32 PM
kenneth say that my blog is uninteresting!!! i don't care. this is my blog and i can do everything i want with it! but how can he say this kind of things? i am so so hurt. =(
but anyway, lets not talk about kenneth, don't spoil my mood. was really very busy this few weeks... don't really had time just for a simple dinner with my friend... always have everything to do everyday, driving, tuition, lessons. i owe alot of people their birthday presents. i don't have time to go shopping.. my life is so crammed..
had my thai lesson just now, the teacher bombarded with alot of questions and i was so damm stuck. suddenly don't understand why i had chose to study this new language in the first place. i am so not cut for it.. anyway, the whole course is ending soon but i'm pretty sure i will fail the test. i have absoutely no confidence.
speaking about test, i had my piano practical exam recently too and it was a disaster!!! firstly, all my 3 pieces were all like shit! and i don't know why my stupid hands cannot play the first piece, i did not even manage to complete it! it will definitely be a sure fail. no doubt about it. really very unlucky this year, so many things going so bad for me...
okay, i need to stop. i need my sleep. no choice if my blog's not interesting, you can go and look at verlyn's one. =)
the story begins all over again.
i'm taking forever to forget you.
Saturday, March 03, 2007 at 2:27 PM
i think i will only get to post when i'm working because most of the day, i am always either doing some things or i would be lazy to even get online, hence i will most probably blog when i am working...
jacintha's birthday on monday.. still don't know what to get for her... nat and i was thinking about getting her stuff that she don't eat so in the end, she would have no choice but to give it all to us, so we are actually getting ourselves something but in the name of jas's present! =) she must be crying everyday because we are always bullying her and we love bullying her!!!
its a pity i did not win that 5million toto... i could have done alot of things with it... too much of daydreaming.. what is mine will be mine... but nevermind, i am happy with what i have, i am contented...
the last post was when i went out with m.h and today, i am going out with her too! what a coincidence and we are also having dinner at sakae too! too much of an coincidence.. she bought a very big bear for RM250 at Genting! i love it alot!, it is so big and so huggable.... so cute.. i want it too but it is really too expensive... i can get alot of things at that price...
okay, right now i've got one probably mad uncle sitting infront of me.. and he keeps talking and talking... if i would have known then i would not have entertained him.. he's crazy... tell him the same thing and he keep repeating the same thing.. i told him that only SQ and MI goes direct to chongqing but he keep insisting that there are other airlines that goes there... please go now.. i am controlling my temper now... and i'm super irritated... finally... he is just killing me!!
i think i am going to see the doctor soon... not being able to sleep well lately.. always end up sitting at 2,3 plus in the morning.. sooner or later i will be crazy at the rate that i'm sleeping... best if i can get s0me sleeping pills from the doctor... it would probably cure my sleeping problems...
my stomachache is killing me.... stopping....
too much of everything and too less of everything....
my driving licence(it's a miracle!)
a trip abroad with my friends
a brand new job
a word from you
to see you again
good results is a must
work hard to get lots of money
