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Sunday, April 01, 2007 at 7:00 AM

because of the virus in my computer, it deleted everything that i wrote yesterday even though i remember saving it. thanks to that virus that i have to write everything all over again. THANKS!

everyone is leaving... jus is going to m'sia this morning and will only be back on friday, next week. and then mr charming will be going to thailand today. and i don't know when he will be coming back. he is telling me two weeks later but, he is full of changes.. everything can change for him since now, he does not have any work commitments anymore. why is everyone going overseas? i want to go too but there is no one to accompany me. bored. people either have no money or just some other stupid excuses.

one maths question and it takes 4, 5 people to solve it. but, it still remain unsolved. don't understand how did i manage to get through my primary school life. really don't like maths, and the reason is because i can't solve them. don't understand how people can think and solve the question but i cannot. so i kinda admired them, for being always that "powerful". i guess, if i would have studied harder for my PSLE, i would have been in a better school and in a better stream. not that my school is not good but it would have been better if i was in express stream. just can't imagine how naive i used to be, to think without studying, i would be able to get good scores and get to a good secondary and into the express stream. it is just like when i was in secondary school. i was hoping that i can get into either JC or Poly but turn out, into a private institution. never expect too much from yourself. you will end up getting even more disappointed. not that private institution is not good but it is alot of difference in terms of their diploma recognition. and more moeny will be spend on the private school.

linking to the topic, my advance diploma is already halfway through and exams are coming. the whole course will be ending in july and we'll really start to step into society and start working. was actually thinking about the bachelor degree but i don't think i will be able to afford it. and i think everything will be totally different. really good friends now will not even be talking after the diploma. it always happen, everytime after something ends, then all the friends will be spread out and if you are lucky, then you will be able to talk to him on MSN but if not, you all will never get to talk to each other again. it happen in primary and secondary and now.. i really hate that feeling. it means that all the friends that we made in the diploma course are just superficial. being friends just because you are in class together almost everyday. and being friends just because you are close to each other and not because you are being true. whatever. it always happen.

nat was dicussing with me that we need more than 24hrs a day. probably 36hrs will do. we have so much to do, but there is simply not enough time. everyday, we rush and rush, and when we are in the midst of something, it will be so late that we will have no choice to sleep, otherwise, we will be like walking zombies the next day. Okay. maybe it is just me but 24 hrs is simply not enough. if only time would stop. then we will have plenty of time. but if your time really stop, then it is time to go and change the batteries of your clock. they probably ran dead of batteries. sorry. i'm just being lame.

i also realise that i've been very stress lately.. i was walking from the food court back to my office. on the way, i was walking so fast that my friend said that he cannot take my speed. haha. guess i am used to walking so fast because everywhere i go, i am always rushing. no matter where i'm going, i will be rushing. always rushing for time. horrible bad habit. but another thing that i realise is that, nowadays, i eat my food very slowly, i still can't find the reason and it has seriously nothing to do with me, talking alot and therefore not eating. but i just eat so fast as compared to before. anyway. under observation, i think i will be able find out the reason/s.

a simple post and i've been posting for about 5hrs. of course it is not like continueing posting but in between having some breaks or having to serve customers. don't want to think anymore. tired.

it is just not the same anymore. or probably never was.

i'm taking forever to forget you.