Say it OnLy if you mean it.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007 at 6:40 AM

and i was right. i was almost late for work, i woke up at 5.45am when i was suppose to wake up at 5 and i am supposed to report to work at 6. i already expected this, since i was not able to sleep yesterday. only reach home at about 11plus then i think by the time i get to sleep it is about 1. so means that i only manage to sleep about 4hours.

i don't think i would like to talk about yesterday since it is not a happy occasion but it is sad to think that this is the only occasion where friends for so long can get together. i guess that a brave battle was fought and just that luck was not on his side or probably it is time to stop all the suffering to get on to a better place. but he is always our Mr Happy Ho. =) No matter what happens.

i admired him for his positive attitude and no matter how he felt or how bad his day was, he will always be smiling and laughing away. i admired him for not letting people worry about him, he always gives people priority before himself, cared about people before thinking about himself. his unselfish character makes people like him more.

time is passing so slowly. sometimes i really cannot stand aunties. they ask one thousand and one questions. and it is not like they will listen after i explained to them so i ended up having to tell them alot of times and of course, people like me will get irritated and then, they blamed me and say that i'm very impatient. but how do you expect me to be patient after they asked you the same thing so many times and they refused to listen what you have to say and after that, they accused of not explaining properly. and how can i not get AGITATED? seriously irritating.

i'm going off at 2pm. quite happy because i thought i will have to work till 6pm since it is the public holiday, but my supervisor put me till 2pm, so i can go home and rest and get back my sleep. but poor jus will have to work till10pm after not having enough sleep for consecutively 3 days.( i think so)

in my opinion, i would still say the same thing. you choose your own path, we choose or we decide what we want to do. no one can force us to think differently but if that person refused to give up the past and walk towards the future then what is whole point? why give people hope then after that smashed it? i just feel that sorry doesn't cure heartaches and neither does it let people forget everything. it just doesn't happen this way. if you have decide to go on with your decision, then let go of the other choice. the one suffering is not only one person but also the other one involved. even though i may not know what exactly is happening and i may not know everything that is happening but it just happens to everyone. everyone face problems and it is just the way you deal with it. never avoid the problem and try to run away from it. it may be a temporary escape for you, but it will never be permanent. what happened has happened and there is nothing like "pretend nothing has happen before" kind of thing. if you don't let go of the past then how to go on to the future? if old things don't go, then how to allow new things to come? 旧的不去，新的怎么来？

still haven't finish my econs essay question. feel very tired to start and also very lazy. and also the exams have just been over for some time so i still feel quite relaxed and not having the mood to study. but then, i don't think i have any choice at all. sad.

i realise now why things will turn out this way. probably we are just not meant to be.

always in our heart. the best teacher ever. Mr Ho.C.K

i'm taking forever to forget you.