Say it OnLy if you mean it.

Saturday, May 26, 2007 at 7:11 AM

the chalet was fun. at least it was better than i expected. the only thing that was bad was that i had totally not enough sleep. everytime when i was about to fall asleep, someone or something will wake me up. people will come in and out of the door or if not my friend who is sleeping beside me will suddenly jump or make some noise and wake me up and the worse is, people SNORE! how to sleep? so i ended up having a hard time sleeping and to add to what's already worse, the bed was so hard and the pillow was so high. anyway, i still find it fun. another one more chalet guys?

pictures, i will probably post it up when i'm at home and free. wanted to post when jas sent me all the pictures but as usual, LAZY!

Pirates of the Caribbean screened on the 24/05/07 and today is the 26/05/07. i've already watch twice of the same show and for both of the times, i fall asleep during parts of the show. not that it is very boring but i just cannot stand fighting scenes. i find them very boring. the movie is actually quite good, having some comical parts but i think probably cause the show is too long. my friend also find it quite hard to keep awake.

i'm crazy. i don't know why did i say all this things. i mean, that is seriously not me. i know that right now i don't have any feelings for anyone but why did i say all that? probably i just want a word, i just want something for my mind to settle. i don't want to keep thinking about it. it has been bothering me for quite some time. the answer that i have doesn't even do any good. isn't it the same as not saying anything? there was a big miscommunication. what to do?

what is he to me? a friend? what am i thinking? i don't know. i just don't want to end up heartbroken again. enough of all this heartaches, once bitten, twice shy. what will be, will be. we'll see how. i'm trying hard.

oh my. i'm so tired. woke up at 5am and slept only at 12plus. that is less than 5 hours of sleep and i think tonight is going to be the same thing too. and the on monday have to wake up early cause i have class at 9 in the morning, waited for some irritating person reply from msn and ended up giving some stupid answer and then say that he is going out. come on, who should be giving in? i have work at 5 the next morning and i am sacrificing my sleep and in the end you just said bye and that you would have to go? seriously irritating. i hate all this. i don't think i deserve all this kind of treatment from someone that don't even care or someone that i don't really care. why do people think like that? i hate giving and giving. i'm already very tired.

i want to watch spiderman 3. i know i'm abit late cause the show has already been screened for quite some time but now, i have someone to accompany to watch it, i'm gonna watch it. if nothing goes wrong, tuesday at great world with jas. we have class in the afternoon so we are watching the 11am show. hopefully.

nothing much to say.

we just need that little courage to do what we really want and what we think we like.

all the best. sis. you rock! you have proved to be brave. =)

i'm taking forever to forget you.