just can't people can change just like that. i mean seriously, what happen to timothy? i don't think that is the timonthy that i know or maybe, i just don't know the real him. but who cares, he can just go and die. A guy with no balls and get girls to cover his mistake for him. Irritating!
i'm feeling so stuffy. so many things trapped in my mind. i can't sleep well this few days, ever since Mr Ho thing happen. to think that a person can just be gone like that, why do good and kind people always die so early? probably i should do evil things and probably rob the bank or something to live longer. i mean it is just so unfair, he was such a good teacher and friend to alot of people. the only thing i remember is his laughter and that is how he brought laughter into our lives, we were always laughing and smiling when we were around with him. i think i'm getting emo again. =(
tomorrow's gonna be a busy day. playing badminton in the morning with h.y, jas and kenneth. then we have school till 5pm. then after that going shopping with jas and nat. has been a long time since the three of us went shopping together, i think the last time was for the chinese new year clothes. another spending day. my account is emptying soon, already close to drying up.
sometimes, is it worth it to care so much for a person? to like this person to such an extent that you will be willing to do anything for him? and in the end, found him holding hands with another girl? i think that "as long as you are happy, then i will happy" thing is just total bullshit. how to be happy when this girl/guy you are madly falling in love with, gets together with another guy/girl? or even worse, someone that you are close with and know that you have feelings for him? doing so much and ended up with nothing, not even a word of thanks. probably a word of sorry but i don't think it is enough. sorry does not meant the world and it does not heal any wound or heartbreaks you cause. it just sucks. seriously.
if you want to be forget everything and pretend that nothing has happen before, or pretend that i've never met you before, then you will have to get a baseball bat and hit me hard on my head, then i will get amnesia and i will forget everything. or probably stab me in the heart so i won't even have to try hard to think about what has happen before and there will also not be any possibility of me remembering anything about it.
there i go again. getting so damm emo. stupid. spoiling my whole mood. SUCKS!
you deserved everything more than me.
You're never forgotten and always respected. Mr Ho. with lots and lots of love.
my driving licence(it's a miracle!)
a trip abroad with my friends
a brand new job
a word from you
to see you again
good results is a must
work hard to get lots of money
