Say it OnLy if you mean it.

Sunday, June 17, 2007 at 11:53 AM

and it did happen. something that i was trying to avoid but at the end of the day, it still happened. seriously, i would rather not join any competition if we were to end up like that and what does this means, that our friendship is actually not as strong as what we thought it was or it was actually just superficial in the first place. probably that wasn't sufficient communication and too much misunderstandings. even people who are not involved were also somehow pulled into this matter.

i just don't understand. all we wanted in the first place when we join the competition was to just have fun and now, we won a prize, things become like that. now i know why some families can quarrel and even go to court just to win the inheritance left by their family members. 钱真的可以伤感情。

now, i don't care what would be the outcome of the prize or what will we do about it. all i want is to hope that we would be able to get back together and forget about what has happen before. i mean, even if all is in pretence i think it would be fine, since there is just a little time till we all finish our diploma course. i don't care already and it is so not worth it.

i am looking to my left and right instead of concentrating on my post. it just seems that the people beside me are doing much more interestesting things than what i am doing. jus is playing on the games she could find on the website and my colleague beside me is chatting non stop to his friends on msn. ain't life relaxing? sitting here doing nothing except our own stuff, there is absoulutely no customers. all our counters are empty and the phones are also not ringing as much as they used to. what a leisure sunday afternoon, if only all working days are like that.

20 more minutes and i will be off from work. my parents just came home this morning at about 3 plus. the first thing my mum say to me when she saw me was to ask me to get out of her bed cause she is tired and she wants to sleep. so i just got out and i went to my room but i could not sleep cause she on the television and the volume was so loud. =.=

probably i should change my blog to How to make people EMO as suggested by kenneth. well, you can't blame me if i am emo, i'm like that in nature. there is never-ending problems in my life and my life just gets worse and worse. i really wonder how can people always smile and always think so positively. there are people that will never get angry no matter how other provoke them and they will always be laughing and smiling away.

i think thats all for today. not really in the mood. i really want to get slim. how? i am fat fat FAT!

that is a limit to everyone's tolerance.

missing your presence.

i'm taking forever to forget you.