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Saturday, July 28, 2007 at 11:15 AM

amd FINALLY! the exams are over! went to a few people's blog and the first thing i see would be also FINALLY. guess it is the best word to describe everyone's feelings. everyone must be so glad to leave this class. well, i would have to say that i'm kinda reluctant but to compare, of course i would be very happy to be able to leave too.

i'm still so lack of sleep. this few days only had about4 to 5 hours of sleep. feeling so tired. so many things that i want to explain, so many things that i want to say.

i was daydreaming yesterday and i realise, yesterday is really the last time that we will all be together as a group. it is not that we won't be meeting but i would say that the chances will really be very little and we will probably won't be as close as before. yup, and like what jas say, i'll miss those times that we were all sitting together and always arguing. those are the good memories. =)

if everything goes well, monday, we'll all be going for tau huay after desperate housewives. then going for badminton the next day. was thinking of watching movie after that. if kenneth sees this, wanna watch movie on tuesday? i'm really interested in watching that horror movie! please say yes. =) (i sound despo but friends around all are either too busy or they don't dare to watch)

okay. i've been thinking whether to continue working at five stars. now that i've no school already and then it's kinda tiring to work at 6am for the weekend. but, if i were to not work, then i would lose a source of income. i'm already very broke now.

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just came back home. didn't realise that it is already so late. and i still have work tomorrow! so bored. had pasta for dinner. really full and happen to met ruth there. was thinking of going out with her. now i'm psycho-ing someone to go somewhere so everythings not confirm yet. hope i will succeed but i seriously doubt so. when that person makes up his mind, he will not change. and so, that's sad.

i want to go thailand!!!!! i so miss that place, the kind people there and the music and also the culture but most importantly, also the shopping there. bugis is holding a thai fair there and they are thai goods and food. when i was walking around, they were all like talking in thai to each other and for that little moment, i imagined that i was in thailand. i'm so home sick!!! i wanna go there and marry a thai! preferably someone rich and nice-looking and MY age. HAHA. =)

i need solutions, i need people to tell me that i'm doing the right thing. i just feel that this is not going to work out and i don't want to keep dragging it. i know that i'm already near the edge of the cliff. i'm just a step away from falling off it. part of me wants to go forward but the other part of me holds me back. so at the end, i'm left in the middle, going no where. but i really do want to make a conclusion and get a solution. i know i'm super contradicting but that's me.

alright. i'll stop complaining already. need to sleep otherwise i will looking like a big fat panda tomorrow. kenneth, please say yes!!! =)

as much as i hope to be happy, i know it's quite hard.

everyone around me is all having fun going out but i'm stuck at home with my work that starts at 6am! not fair la!

i'm taking forever to forget you.