Say it OnLy if you mean it.

Saturday, September 29, 2007 at 12:44 PM

okay. no matter what happens today, i'm going to finish posting. every single time, whenever i'm posting, i will end up finishing only a little bit of it and then in the end, i would have to delete the whole post. so today, i'm determined to finish everything.

i'm so pissed off today. don't know what is wrong. it's not that i've got irritated by the morning's customers. i actually enjoyed today's checking in since i didn't really did much and most of the stuff were done by sam and kok ping. and most of time, we were all like slacking anyway.

going for tuition abit late since tuition has been pushed to a later time at 3.30pm so maybe i will leave at about 2 plus.

just some small irritating event to share. today, as usual checking in for customers going to genting. then, one customer came and complain why her seats were behind when she requested for the front. her actual seats were L2bc,L3abc then after that i said, there is only 3 rows only and how is it the back? then she LL and walk away. =.= then when i was checking the bus, one woman came up to me and screamed at me. she said why did the person put her seats all the way in the back, then i just say something to her and i walk off. there is nothing she can do cause the bus is leaving already. HAHA. i'm smart.

alright gotta stop. one more of mr lek's quotes.
I'm not an idealist, but one who had an irrevocable contract with faith. Being cynical is not a choice, but a result of idealisms which had failed man too often. A lack of faith is not only due to failures, but caused by man's decision not to have faith, as well.
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i'm taking forever to forget you.

Saturday, September 22, 2007 at 7:03 AM

i think this must be the most unlucky week of my life. i'm working morning shift for 4 days but then, for 2 days, i was left alone to work. nevermind about that, then today, it is my first time being so angry and speaking so loud to the customer. i was like practically shouting at him. he is so super irritating and also don't want to listen to what i'm saying. damm pissed off with him.

and that is not the end, another friend of mine irritate me again. how do you expect to reply or call you when i'm eating? i was already so angry and pissed off and what i want is just to have a nice and relaxed breakfast and there you are, asking me to do things for you. and when i asked you to do some simple thing for me, you just simply keep saying about other things and not getting to the point. it doesn't matter now. i DON'T NEED your help. i can bloody well do things by my own.

anyway. peeps, if you feel like having a good laugh, you can go to jus's blog. there is one post that says about all the stupid questions that customers asked. it is on 16th sep.

okay. shall stop.

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Sunday, September 16, 2007 at 10:26 AM

9pm. this is the time that i slept yesterday. it is not early if i were to wake up at 5am. still tired but i'm happy that i've exactly 8hours of sleep. my colleagues around me are all half-dead. and the rainy weather just makes us feel even more sleepy.
going m'sia tomorrow. i'm gonna have lots of sleep. hope i don't end up sleeping throughout the whole journey there. don't know what to do there, probably just go and shop around since i would be very free.

the greatest distance is not from taipei to new york, but when 2 persons are together, yet she doesnt know that i miss her.

life has been fair to us both, for we taste bitterness more so than the sweetness of honey or nectre. and if it is wasn't the bitterness, we wouldnt be able to appreciate the sweet.

Towards a man, do not try to love him; just understand him.
Towards a woman, do not try to understand her; just love her.

memories are something of the past, it cannot be realised or relived again. someone once shared, if we keep looking back, we'll never take another step forward. or worse, we might be walking straight into the lamp-post without realizing.

life is just a race with no definite endpoint, some endpoints nearer, some farther. not to mention, along life's journey, there'd be many crossroads that sometimes deviate us from our intended destination. then of course, there'd be times when we meet with fortune or misfortune, making us victims of circumstances.... or, we subconsciously move the cheese.

sometimes, we place alot of emphasis on matters that arent tangible. sometimes, we place alot of emphasis on infinite matters that can never outlast time.
(the above are all contributed by mr lek, =) he's cool right!)

there are tons of phonecalls, no customers and lots of crapping. supervisor is behind asking us to choose songs for him to play. that is how free we are. so unlike in the morning, there are about 8 buses today and we were all so busy. i rather be very busy then to just sit here and do nothing, at least the time would pass faster.

now, waiting for ken to come with lunch, not very hungry but then later i would not have a chance to eat all the way until 6plus, so i might as well eat first. still have 2 more hours to go. waiting waiting waiting.

mr lek is full of inspirations today, here's another one.
Anyway, just to share some realisation. I think for all of us, there are always many needs, i.e. financial security, love, being loved, power, authority etc. However, each and every one of us have one particularly strong needs. E.g. Many people who are rich are not happy maybe because their strongest needs is to be loved. I think the key to happiness is to identify that needs and satisfy it...then the rest will fall in place. For me, its finding a soulmate. Once I found her, I realised that I dont have to rich and powerful to be happy. I have purpose in my life and I am contented.

Isn't that so sweet? haha. so mesmerized by him. =) probably he's is also too free, that's why having so much time to type all this. but nevermind, i'm enjoying reading it too.

lastly, also from him,
be reminded to give with an open heart. give only because u want to give & expect nothing in return.

some experienced would say,
1) "love is like kite flying, the more slack you give it, the higher the kite can soar" - so all can gaze, marvel & admire
2) "love is like grasping sand, the harder you clench the fist, the more sand you lose"
3) "love is like a floating leaf in the water, the more you thrash, the further it wades away"

thanks for everything.

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Saturday, September 08, 2007 at 7:00 AM

wednesday, thursday, friday, saturday and sunday. five days straight. working at 6am and ending at 2pm. i'm almost close to dying.everyday only 5 to 6 hours of sleep. not enough sleep plus sick so it makes it even more unbearable. everyday after work i will go home and sleep and then wake up at about 5plus 6 to go tuition. then every afternoon, i would be struggling to wake up and then always in a daze. this would be continueing all the way till about november. and i think by then, i would either end up being a big fatso or being a thin monkey but i think the first one would be more likely, with the constant eating and sitting down.

raining so heavily now. compared to yesterday, it's a big difference. yesterday was so hot, but partially was because i forgot to on the air con. =.= the switch was so high and i just didn't check all the switches. so it was so hot all the way till about 10plus when another colleague realise this mistake. =) so now, i will always remember to on the switch.

i'm so happy and relieved that i'm not studying now. imagine having to wake up 7am in the morning and then having to cope with project and also exams. just thinking about it is stressful enough already. now, i'm also not sure if i'm going to go for the december intake. suddenly just don't feel like studying anymore. i'm happy with what i have now. i'm contented.

waiting for my colleague to be back with breakfast. jus not coming today, i think she going out with her friends. she also another one, nowadays like no more motivation to work. always not coming work. then i would have to be alone. so bored without her. no one to bully. =)

okay. no more. going off soon. i can't wait.

i don't see a "us" in the future.

i'm taking forever to forget you.

Tuesday, September 04, 2007 at 10:22 AM

how should i put it? telling your friend almost everything because that's what friends are for or telling your friend almost everything because you want to make them jealous of you? i really don't know but if you are all out to make me envy you, i can tell you that i'm not the least tempted, maybe affected but that doesn't matter. friends are supposed to help one another but you? friends are your best friends whenever you need help. but when they need help, out of that ten times, how many times are you there?

sick of all these people that are in my life. they are nothing but FAKE. wouldn't there be someone who would be able to show you their true colours? i tried to gave everything i could to friends but i'm not even getting half as much. probably with lies and empty promises would be able to make up the other half.

anyway, my results. and finally, they are here! overall i would not say good but at least i'm able to pass all my subjects. i guess people just would keep expecting for more. when we just finish our exams, all we were wishing was just a pass but now that we get back our results, we are complaining why did not get better grades. contradicting.

work and work. being like a mad man. returning everyday feeling so tired and no more extra energy to do anything more. i hate this kind of life but at least it gives me maximum use of my time.

probably all these shouldn't have happen. it's my fault.

i'm taking forever to forget you.